I miss going to work. You might think this is a little wacky, but I really miss my old job and co-workers. I think we often don’t appreciate something until it’s gone. I have been on disability for about 2 years now and still haven’t embraced this change in my life, although blogging is beginning to help this transition. I of course miss my many friends. Thanks goodness for modern technology that makes it easy to keep in touch.
I miss driving. I had to give up driving a few years ago because of seizures. It is so frustrating not being able to run to the store when I find a great deal. I would love to be able to head up to the Jet for a slice of pizza when the craving hits, since our small town has no pizza delivery. Not driving really limits my spontaneity. It would be nice to just pick up and go explore whenever I fancy.
I miss living in a city. Mom and I relocated to a very rural part of Georgia last year to lower our cost of living expenses. My brother purchased a lot of property here and relocated several years ago, so it made sense for us to follow. While the country has its charm, I miss restaurants, take-out, stores, movie theatres, museums, performing arts center and the list goes on.
Most of all I miss my son! My 24 year old son stayed in Florida. This is difficult to even write about because the emotion is so strong. We have such a close relationship; I raised him as a single mom. I miss our long conversations, our hugs and just hanging out together. I miss cooking his favorite meals and making smoothies together almost every evening. I miss all of his goofy friends that would come to the house. I miss the knowledge of really knowing he is all right, because I saw him every day. I worry for him and I pray for him every night. We speak often by telephone, but it is no replacement. I know that a lot of empty nesters experience this grief. Does it get any easier?
I am fortunate to be able to share in the lives of my brother’s children. They are a source of great joy. I am thankful for my mom and all of her support. I haven’t lost all. It just seems to be taking me a while to adjust to this new life.
This was a bit personal for me. I guess sometimes you just have to get it out. Besides it’s my blog and I’ll cry if I want to!
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